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Sunday, April 7, 2013

Hero

Watch "Hero Enrique Iglesias - Lyrics" on YouTube
This song amazes me.

Life! I don't understand it!

Sometimes life is utterly confusing. I just don't understand thing. I feel so much pressure to be a certain way and do certain things.  My head is in a constant state of crazy. Who am I? What do I want?  I don't know anymore.
My whole life has been the same. I open up let people in and they leave. No one ever stays. Why would the want to. I'm completely and utterly fucked up. Why did the Drs do so much to save me? The world would be such a better place without me anyhow. I'm getting tires of this lonely life. I'm sick of feeling disconnected from the world. I just want to be happy. I wish I knew how. I want someone to stay to be there for me. To know me as much as I know myself. I am just slowly slipping into the abyss and I am afraid there is no one to catch me this time.